Debbie Lusignan was my friend
12/21/22 UPDATE: Remembering Deborah Rose Lusignan, with an APOLOGY to Claudia Stauber, partner David, & the Lusignan family
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My favorite Human
Debbie may be the most beautiful woman I have ever known.
(I have known some beautiful women! There are a couple I can think of who are close runners up!)
Debbie may be the most beautiful HUMAN I have ever known.
(I have known some beautiful people. I have some friends now whom I truly adore!)
Debbie might be (despite her flaws and difficulties) my favorite human ever.
Debbie Lusignan is gone.
May God have mercy on her soul.
On December 9th, the great Deborah Rose Lusignan, the Sane Progressive, “Nurse Rose”, and countless other characters, internet handles, and projects, left this earth.
And the sky is exploding with frozen tears.
I wanted to make it to Pittsfield for the service, but the weather is not looking good:
Major UPDATE: 12/21/2022
If I could roll back the clock, I would have really toned down the following section. I apologize to the family, and to David and Claudia.
I did not understand the totality of the circumstances.
I am gaining a better idea now.
Holy God.
Om shanti, shanti, shanti.
Blessed be.
Sweet Jesus.
My comments were insensitive to all involved.
I was mostly thinking of my own needs.
I am very sorry.
David, Claudia, & the Lusignan clan—
Please accept my apology.
I cannot imagine your grief.
Claudia
And to Claudia Stauber, My DEEPEST gratitude to you!
for that AMAZING, healing moment we shared.
I can hardly believe that happened. Holy God.
That was such a mind-blowing, MAGICAL,
wonderful, sweet, healing gift.
Such a personal & private thing.
I feel like if I speak about it, it might ruin it.
That was truly a peak experience for me.
I will never forget you for this gift,
Sweet Claudia.
Blessings to you, &E,
and all of the precious beings in your care.
🙏❤️😊🙇♂️🌹
That’s all I am going to say about it!
For now.
…but SOMEDAY…
You and I both are going to tell that story, TOGETHER!
It’s too good not to share… someday (not now).
To Claudia, David, & Fam
I think I must know, somewhat,
what you are going through now:
Incredible grief, guilt, shame.
I know this, because I TOO am dealing with this.
Besides family, I know I was one of a very small number of people who had some idea something was very wrong, that Debbie was in deep crisis.
She reached out to me in June.
She told me she had been in crisis since Feb.
(there is more stuff Debbie told me which I’m not going to reveal now)
What?
February!!!!!!!
(counting) 1: Feb 2: Mar 3: Apr 4: May 5: June
What the actual!!!
HOLY SHIT BATMAN
Debbie is telling me in June (2022)
that she has been in crisis for 5 months!!!!
I gotta admit, my first question was:
9-1-1 Hello? ⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️
Calling all Cars!
Urgent Action is Needed!
Is this thing on?
Can Anyone Hear Me?
Who is looking after Debbie!!!!!!!
When she got really popular, 2015-2018, she seemed like on top of the world. Yes she sometimes talked about her “struggles with mental illness”, but it seemed like something in the distant past.
But during the time I was chatting with her (2021-2022), I began to view her as a special needs person. She once told me that she was a “savant”, which is a person who has extraordinary talents and gifts, but often have difficulties dealing with people, and who are often described as “autistic” or given other psychiatric diagnoses.
Special-needs people need CAREGIVERS. They need to be surrounded by people motivated by care for the individual’s needs, and compassion.
I have worked as a caregiver. I have done hospice work. Part of this job can often involve being a patient advocate.
So yeah, when she told me she was in crisis in June, my first thought was,
“Who is taking care of Debbie"?
So, believe me!
I did *something*!
I chewed someone’s backside. (I won’t say who).
I asked this person a question that I’m not going to repeat now.
Do you know what the answer was?
a) Debbie will be fine.
b) Fuckoff Bill, this is none of your business.
Seems like Debbie wasn’t really fine, was she?
So where do we go from here?
I am NOT assessing any blame at this point.
I am not dispensing shame.
(I have plenty of my own).
I am just stating these were the facts, and my reactions.
I KNOW the family is in SHOCK and grief.
Because I am also in shock and grief.
I know everyone involved,
David and Claudia
Sister and Cousin, etc
Probably her kids too….
… is likely experiencing GUILT & SHAME
I KNOW this because I am experiencing
incredible guilt and shame.
Everyone is blaming themselves.
I know this VERY WELL.
because I am blaming myself.
Debbie reached out to me in June,
IN CRISIS!
And I fucking failed her!
I failed her.
I will carry this burden to my grave.
But WE ALL failed her.
”The System” failed her.
We need to triage this event and figure out what happened
and what we can do to prevent this from happening again.
We have just lost a SUPERSTAR.
Who died FAR TOO YOUNG.
Friends, for us all to heal,
I think we all need to get past this guilt / shame / blame game.
Stop blaming ourselves.
Stop blaming each other.
And most of all, stop blaming Debbie.
Forgive yourself.
Forgive Debbie.
Forgive each others.
Dear David, Claudia, Kerry,
Here is my pledge to you,
on my honor as a man of high personal integrity,
seeking for the highest and best:
I pledge that I will NEVER judge you.
I pledge that I will NEVER hold any of you responsible.
I am not seeking revenge, or to avenge or even “justice”,
whatever that means.
I only want to know the truth.
If Debbie lost a good friend — who happened to be super famous thinker, like Buckminster Fuller, or Roger Penrose… but also someone like Lenny Bruce or John Lennon — who was such a threat to the corrupt status quo de facto political structures that she had to be silenced — do you think Debbie would investigate what happened?
You bet your ass she would.
This thing is BIG
This may be larger than any of us know.
I believe that, to some degree,
all of us who are players in this,
we all chose this by Soul Agreement.
Here are the facts as I know them:
Debbie had suffered incredible PHYSICAL intimidation and tangible threats against her life around 2017-2018, which she had been investigating large systems of power, “Mass Tragedy Events”, and connecting it to Obama, the NDAA rider which repealed the Smith-Mundt Act, and the Brand New “Crisis Actor” industry, (and this is in addition to her prior work exposing the FRAUD of our elections, and the FRAUD of all major political parties.)
People like Debbie, great thinkers & movers,
Judy Barie, Brandy Vaughn, Julian Assange, Edward Snowden, Aaron Swartz, Lenny Bruce, Frank Zappa, Bill Hicks, George Carlin, Michael Hastings, Michael Ruppert, Bill Cooper, Gary Webb, Jim Bell
=> Debbie was in this league…
People like Debbie get fucked-with by the “Powers that (shouldn’t) Be” ALL THE TIME.The Myth of Mental Illness
As described in the life work of the late Dr. Thomas Szasz, the psychiatric industry is essentially pseudoscience:
The DSM-IV (or V, whatever edition they are up to), the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, latest Edition, creates “mental disorders” out of perfectly normal human states.
They then use the diagnosis of these so-called “disorders”, along with so-called “Mental Hygiene Laws”, to BYPASS Constitutional Protections against unlawful searches and seizures (including seizing a living person), and to institutionalize people, deprive people of their liberty, and to FORCE dangerous psychiatric procedures and the administration of toxic drugs upon people (which often CAUSE the symptoms they claim to cure), against the will and the consent of the person.
And Szasz said they use these drugs and procedures against Malcontents, and Rabble Rouses, Visionaries, Creative Thinkers, Political Dissidents, Whistleblowers, Influencers, … people who are making big changes in the world, … in order to SHUT THEM UP, DISABLE them, SILENCE them, and the CONTROL THEM.
Does this sound like Debbie to you?
We MUST find out what happened.
I had no contact with Debbie for most of this year.
I have no visibility into what was happening in her life.
(Only the bombshell she laid on me in June.)
Here is what I aim to learn:
HOW exactly did Debbie end up on Psych Meds?
This seems to go back to 2006.
What was happening in Debbie’s life at the time?
Was Debbie medicated for the past 16 years? (My God)WHO was her attending physician when she died?
Which drugs exactly was Debbie on since 2006?
Which drugs was she taking when she died?WHO amongst her closest friends and family were on-board with Debbie being on psych meds?
WHO was advocating FOR DEBBIE to be Free from these chemical poisons?
WHO was caring for Debbie’s needs?
Again, this is a FACTUAL investigation.
I am not looking to find someone to blame.
Debbie was a PROMINENT international celebrity.
Her millions of fans will be demanding these answers.
As her friend, I pledge to find out and report the truth.
Blame and Shame:
Games without any Winners
To get past this, I feel strongly that
we all need to let go of the Blame/Shame game.
This is a game where there are no winners.
We need to come together and form an understanding about:
What happened?
HOW did this happened?
WHY did this happen?
and WHAT this means for all of us?
We ALL need this in order to heal,
and move forward.
We only can move forward from where we are HERE-NOW.
“It is what it is.”
We cannot change what happened yesterday.
We CAN change what we do tomorrow.
Finally: While I am happy Julie Collins said what she said, because it expressed what many people were experiencing, in retrospect, I would have really toned down my support and my comments below had I known the horrific way in which Debbie died. I had no concept of this.
If I could roll back history, I would.
I am deeply sorry.
I am leaving my original here for the historical record.
The family announced a public service, open to all, which would be livestreamed, but then shut it down to “Family and friends only”. Then, “If you are a friend, please reach out”.
So I did. Her son blocked me, her daughter ignored me, and her cousin* gave me a boatload of push-back.
(* Correction. I initially said “sister”.)
I know they were overwhelmed with comments, and queries from tens of thousands (conservative est.) of Debbie fans. Asked for private time for the family.I think this is a big mistake.
Lusignan Family, Partner David, & Claudia Stauber:
OPEN THE SERVICE TO ALL PLEASE!
Look, I understand the family is grieving.
But this shiz about opening up the viewing and service for all, and then shutting it down is pretty MESSED UP. What’s the idea behind that?
Julie Collins says something powerful here. I tend to agree (listen below)
It seems to me the family needs to realize what a powerful force Debbie was, and RECOGNIZE that she had MILLIONS of fans all over the world who are grieving now too, and we all need closure.I had a special friendship w/Debbie in her final years of life. I can prove this.
The fact that the family is blocking me is wrong.But after listening to Julie Collins, I think EVERYONE should be allowed to attend, as originally promised.
Julie is right. There is going to be a (virtual) stampede unto Pittsfield and unto ALL of your Social Media Feeds and email boxes if you don’t rethink this strategy.
The internet is already exploding on hearing of her death at such a young age.
If you want to RAISE SUSPICION about, oh, I dunno, about how much her own family supported (or didn’t) Debbie in her work, or supported (or not) her affective difficulties, and her chronic unhappiness, or, oh, I dunno, maybe the circumstances of her life during 2022, and her death, then yeah, just shut us all down.Listen to Julie.
(I never would have had the guts to say this, so Bravo Julie!)
Original is here.
What’s the big secret?
Does the family have something to hide?Like maybe their guilt and shame that they treated Debbie like an outcast, they didn’t approve of or support her work, and they abandoned her in her time of greatest need? => THIS WHAT PEOPLE WILL THINK!
I hope that Debbie’s family will PLEASE RECONSIDER.
My personal connection and friendship w/Debbie
Debbie and I became close* beginning March 2021.
We chatted for 6 months at least.
(* as close as someone can get. Debbie was very guarded, suspicious, distrusting. Understandably so! I don’t blame her. I know some of what Debbie went through 2017-2018. She was facing physical intimidation, legal papers, and also tangible threats against her life. I probably don’t know half of it. Whatever happened scared the crap out of Debbie, and sadly, she never fully recovered.)
Our relationship was "strictly business”. She and I were researching the same things, relating to the subject matter of her website, Unite4Truth.com. (I did some copy-editing for her. Her spelling and grammar were often atrocious! She was freaking brilliant, but she needed an editor.)
But in 6 months, you learn a lot about someone. She told me about her mom and her dad. She told me about her son, and where he worked. She told me about her friends and family who had taken the clotshot, and how frustrated she was with them, several got sick and/or died. She told me about how her partner David would sometimes laugh and gently poke fun at how she pronounced certain words.
To be clear: Everything she ever said was that David was very kind to her, and totally supported her work. He sounds like a great guy. I am so happy that she found a partner who could keep her entertained, respected her, appreciated her special gifts, and her special challenges, and treated her with kindness.
It was difficult being friends with Debbie.
I can tell you from my brief personal experience that Debbie can often be very harsh and difficult to maintain a relationship with. She had drastic mood swings, and often seemed hostile, paranoid, and depressed. (psych meds? her experiences? combo of both maybe?)
She was also 50 (in 2021), which is an age many women go through menopause, “The Change” or metamorphosis from Mother to Crone. (I went through this with my ex-partner. It was tough on her, and both of us.)
Turning 50 can be a difficult time even for a man. It’s like the 1/2 way point, and often signals entering a stage of semi-retirement, and begins a time of reflection. The Third Ashram in the Vedic tradition. (Sanatana Dharma, “Hinduism”)
But turning 50 can be especially difficult for a woman. During “The Change”, women go through great upheavals in their bodies, purging, shedding, expressing great emotions, and also requires rewriting one’s internal “story of self”.
Debbie was also approaching the 10 year mark with her partner. I know from my own personal experience, the 10 year mark can be a very stressful time in any domestic relationship. (Debbie never talked about what her day to day life was like. And I never asked about anything she didn’t offer. She spoke to me very little about her partner, but when she did, it was all favorable.)
So while I didn’t know about her psych meds at the time (2021), I did know she had suffered greatly for her work.
So even though Debbie was lash out at me sometimes (it almost felt abusive), I just tried to keep in mind how much she had been through, how much of herself she gave the world…
And I just kept forgiving her. I adored her so much.
The may be Debbie’s Greatest Lesson to me:
How to stay mindful and present even when someone you want to help is lashing out at you. (This is something caregivers often encounter).
(This and much more are coming.
I can’t put this all into a single blog post!)
A Lifetime of Art & Activism
I know so much about Debbie. I could be her biographer.
Debbie was like my Soul Sister.
Once I recognized that, I researched her life going back 15 years.
👉Election Integrity
👉Susan B. Anthony Museum board protest
👉Photography
👉Comedy Channel
👉Sane Progressive
👉Unite4Truth
… EVERY project was done with MASTERY and GENIUS.
Everything Debbie touched was golden.
She NEVER worked from a place of ego.
She never wanted to be famous.
I think she was uncomfortable by her own celebrity.
She only wanted to devote her many talents to make people laugh, make beautiful art, and change the world in a positive way.
She suffered fame, in order to achieve these ends.
Although she suffered from chronic, debilitating depression (sadness) most of her life, she still managed to be extremely prolific in her work, and push through. She would put on a smile, and her charm, and make people laugh.
No one could see the unhappiness at the core of her being.
EDIT: Claudia Stauber
HOW could I have forgotten to mention Claudia Stauber in my tribute?
This must be said and acknowledged:
To say that Claudia was “best friends” with Debbie is an grotesque understatement. Debbie & Claudia have a deep soul-bond. Debbie would tell me repeatedly, “Claudia is my Soul Mate. Claudia is in my Soul Pod/Soul Group” etc. Stuff like that.
Debbie loved Claudia the way that I love Debbie.
Claudia was Debbie’s internet proxy.
The term “power of attorney” has a specific legal meaning,
but Claudia had Debbie’s complete trust like that.
If Debbie had anything to say, she would say it through Claudia.
If people wanted to get through to Debbie, everyone understood you went through Claudia.
At some point, I came to see Debbie as a “special needs” person. I see Claudia as being one of Debbie’s principle caregivers. I don’t know for sure (in my head), but in my heart, I know the Claudia must have worked with Debbie during those 2.5 years of darkness and silence to help bring Debbie back to life, good health, a positive outlook, and help her to get back online, and doing what she loved to do.
So I will always honor and acknowledge you Claudia, for your deep friendship and care for your friend, “Nurse Rose” 🌹
🙏❤️😊🙇♂️
Let’s be clear, Debbie was not *MY* anything!
I’m a little uncomfortable saying “Debbie was my friend”, because “my” can imply ownership or possession.
Nobody owned Debbie! She was the freest soul alive.
I’m not claiming Debbie for my own. I know she loved her partner, and to the best of her ability, she loved her adoring fans. I know there are 10,000+ people who adore Debbie as much as I do. Maybe 100,000s. Maybe millions.
Still, I know that I had a special bond and connection w/Debbie.
I know many people do.
I do not want to take away from your experience!
But I’ve had people I don’t even know writing to me and telling me that I was one of the closest people to her in the last 2 years of her life.
Holy God.
How can that be possible?
I couldn’t find anything Debbie got involved in that I didn’t support.
This is RARE in a human life to find such a close match.
This is why Debbie excited me:
She was very much like me, she saw the world like I do.
Professionally, my last title was “Systems Engineer”. I was very highly compensated. I told Debbie she could have done my job. She always said she hated tech, but she had a brilliant technical mind, an uncanny ability to quickly diagnose large, systemic societal ills, and an keen eye for root cause analysis.We both have suffered similar traumas growing up.
I too have had run-ins with the psychiatric industry,
but managed to escape their talons each time.
(It doesn’t sound like Debbie wasn’t so lucky.)
Debbie and I both did similar work (research, photography, analysis, independent media)
I have made TV shows since ~1994.
***MY life*** has been attacked by industrial actors due to my work!
***I*** have had black SUVs following me around!
(when I was doing work revealing the harms of the Oil+Gas industry)
Just a sampling of the Oil+Gas industry goons who stalked and surveilled me 24x7 between 2018-2019.
Debbie was like me, only she was MUCH, much better than me in every way.
This is someone you seek out as a teacher.
I can honestly say I was never interested in Debbie romantically.
Although, like I’ve stated, I think she is (i hate to say “was”; Debbie’s spirit is still here with us) a most beautiful woman.
She told me she had hundreds of men, her “internet boyfriends” who would write to her endless numbers of love letters, where they profess their infinite love, and stuffing her email inbox with marriage proposals. She hated that shit!
From 2015-2018, Debbie was like my rock, my anchor, my grounding rod, my Sherpa, my guide, my Genius Muse, my inspiration, we were “together” (virtually) almost ever day for over 2 years. She used to pretend to hold up a mirror during her livestreams and call out everyone’s names, like Romper Room.
Debbie was SO BRILLIANT, SO SMART, but she also was very down-to-earth. She spoke with homespun Yankee New England twang that reminded me of my own relatives. She even looks like a Hotalen (my mom’s side of the family).
I know Debbie would pronounce the name of my village (Endicott NY) just like a native: en-DEEEE-caaaht. Maybe Endicott and Pittsfield are sister cities. It seems like the demographics are similar (poor, working class).
She reminded me of a like your coolest Aunt, whom you always suspected smoked pot, but were never sure. Debbie was cool like that. Such a free spirit, and a free thinker. Everybody loved Debbie (especially children).
I’m also not claiming that Debbie felt the same about me as I felt for her.
Frankly, I think I often got on her nerves. I think she thought I was rather dimwitted, and/or a slow learner. She EXPECTED mastery from people. I’m just being honest!
But I asked for guidance, and Debbie worked with me. I am SO very grateful. She really straightened my head out on the basics of the logic of …. COVID.
Debbie was like me, somehow. Lots of people say “Debbie woke me up.” Debbie didn’t really wake me up, but after feeling like a freak my entire life, I felt I finally met someone who thinks like I do, and sees the world like I do. I recognized her as being in my family, a family I never know existed. AND, she attracted 100,000 subs in just 3 years! My “family” was MUCH larger than I knew!
Maybe Debbie’s greatest gift to me was realizing that I am not alone. There are many of us out there. Debbie was like a lighthouse, a beacon which attracted similar “Indigo People” and brought us all together.
I feel like we are the same Tribe, or Clan, or family. Maybe I’m in her Soul Group. Who knows. But I had a special bond with her.
(I too have suffered chronic depression most of my life. But I was healed and found a new way to look at life and activism through a study and practice of Yoga.)
She was like me, but she was WAY smarter, and WAY funnier, and WAY more charming, charismatic, better looking, and everything! She was like my little sister, but someone I could admire and look up to and to learn from too.
Debbie had a presence which was rare and captivating.
She was like a movie star. She could upstage the biggest ham-actor.
Like William Shatner!
I imagined if I ever met her, I would bow and touch her feet.
This his how Indians treat great Rishis (seers) and Acharya (teachers).
I called Debbie Sri Rishi Acharya (Venerated Great Teacher and Seer).
Debbie was a PRODIGY and a Rock Star. Everything she did was with Virtuosity. Debbie was larger than life. She had such energy, such exuberance, such brilliance. She was a genius and a visionary, and a great teacher.
I call her Great Spirit (Mahatma).
I choose those words carefully.
Debbie was systems thinker, like a mix between Alan Watts, Allen Toffler, Buckminster Fuller, & Richard Feynman, all rolled into one. With some Frank Zappa, & Monty Python added in. I also think she was a Trekkie (TOS!). All of the logic of Spock, but with all of the passion and drama of Kirk.
Debbie could see patterns in things that others couldn’t see.
She is as important as an Alex Jones, Bill Cooper, David Icke, Max Igan, or Jimmy Dore… and more.
Debbie’s Many Talents
Many people don’t know she was an award-winning comedy actor / writer:
Her VERY FIRST VIDEO on Youtube in 2014 got 300,000 views!
Holy God, that is something!
And do you know how she did it?
Debbie Cheated!
Debbie was such a freaking genius! When she created her comedy channel, she CHEATED. She Gamed the Algorithm. I can tell you exactly how she did it!!
She looked at how it all worked, she manipulated the algorithm with a very silly video, and she got 300,000 views!!!
Debbie was the MASTER of the Game!
Photography
Most people who knew her as Sane Progressive also probably didn’t know she was also an award-winning photographer.
This photo of Debbie’s was published in the New York Times:
Debbie’s photos are BREATHTAKING in their beauty. There should be a gallery to host an exhibition of her work. I’m not often impressed by photography, I’ve seen it all! But holy shit. Debbie was truly gifted. She only used natural light. No Photoshop. No tricks.
Debbie’s latest project: Unite4Truth
I can finally reveal who my greatest COVID mentor was, “Nurse Rose” of Unite4Truth.
No one had heard from her since 2018, so in 2020, lots of people were asking, “I wonder how Debbie feels about CONVID?”
Well it turns out that Debbie was a hard line “No virus” person.
She was a peer equal to all of my greatest COVID heroes:
I was able to reconnect with Debbie 3/2021 after Claudia Stauber posted this to twitter:
WHAT!!! “Your favorite nurse!!!!??” OMG.
I DM’d her and she responded right away!!!
I was SO HAPPY! I was high for 6 weeks, like a dog who is reunited with his favorite human after a long absence: First: stunned silence. Then, quivering, and whining, then FULL SPEED towards the beloved, body convulsing, slobber and tongues everywhere, with no sense of fragile objects in the vicinity.
That’s how I was for 6 weeks after we reconnected.
I thought I was clear on the CONVID basics by late 2020. I knew that the virus was fake, I’d learned of Andrew Kaufman, Christine Massey, and Eric Coppolino, and later, many others (Tom Cowan, Mark and Sam Bailey, Stefan Lanka, Perth Group, Kevin Corbett, Mike Stone, etc. etc).
But at the time, I was still watching Del Bigtree, thinking he had some useful information. I’d be sharing all kinds of people, Sucharit Bhakdi comes to mind.
Debbie would get SO MAD at me!
”WHY are you sharing all of those VIRUS PUSHERS!!!?” she’d say.
And she’d threaten to close the connection forever (because I’m such a retard).
She never told me who was the subject of the offensive shares. She made me figure it out. So this is when I (unofficially) started the Virus Pushers Against Clotshots list.
I studied every so-called expert or self-appointed leader (usually a millionaire with connections to the Medical Industrial Complex, and/or big Pharma) in the so-called “COVID Truth”, “Medical Freedom”, “Vaccine Choice”, and “Anti-Vax” communities and evaluated each of them on ONE ISSUE ONLY: Whether or not they promote the existence of fictitious “viruses” which have never been proven to exist, using the Scientific Method w/proper control experiments.
What she means by “Virus Pushers Against Clotshots” is all of the people like Del Bigtree, RFK Jr, Reiner Fuellmich, Robert Malone, Peter McCullough, Steve Kirsh, etc. etc. ad nauseum. These are the people who CLAIM to be opposing the harmful countermeasures, but who are in fact PROMOTING the CORE FRAUD (“the scary virus” narrative), which got us to this point!
I created the wiki months later when asked by journalist Eric Coppolino.
Even the term “Virus Pushers Against Clotshots” => 100% Debbie!
I LOVED the time that Eric Coppolino was being interviewed by Dr Sam Bailey, and he tells her the joke, and Dr Sam cracks up! Eric credited me, but it was such a classic Debbie line. She was a master of the counter-narrative. Anyone who knew Debbie can instantly recognize her unique ability to turn a phrase.
Source: https://odysee.com/@drsambailey:c/the-COVID-19-Chronology-with-Eric-Coppolino:8
People credit me. But it was Debbie’s.
I WANTED to credit her, but anyone who was close to Debbie knew what the rules are. Basically: Never speak her name. She truly wanted to be invisible.
That should have been a clue for me…
I have SO MUCH more to say, but am trying to keep this brief.
Debbie quit responding to my emails around October.
She quit updating her blog around the end of January, 2022.
I occasionally saw her posting in various forums and venues (I knew some of her id’s, like “Lady Sane” on Disqus), but she quit that too early February.
The June 2022 BOMBSHELL
I heard nothing from her until June.
And then WOW.
She laid a bombshell on me.
I’m not going to reveal everything she told me then. I might never. She told me some very private, personal information. Medical stuff.
Debbie told me she was in crisis. She had a medical emergency in February, and almost lost her life. She was a little but vague, so I was never really sure. “Maybe it as A, maybe it was B”.
She repeated over and over how sad and depressed she was, how bleak was her outlook. She said, “I’m far from being over this”.
I had a pretty good idea what she was trying to tell me.
But I didn’t want to believe it.
Still I was so disturbed by what she told me, I cried for several days.
I told her, “Debbie, PLEASE put my number into your cell phone and call me ANYTIME you are in crisis, 24x7”.
“I love you, Debbie”
I almost never use “The L word”, because the English word is pure confusion.
But sometimes it’s the only thing that comes out.
I told her, my dear friend, my favorite human, who is telling me that she is dying:
“I love you, Debbie”. I told her I prayed for her happiness and healing every day. (not a lie).
This is what she wrote me back.
Shortly after that, she asked me not to write to her anymore.
I was so sad. I felt like I was helpless. She reached out to me in crisis, and I didn’t know what to do. So I just cried. And I prayed.
The Insecticide Alternative to Clotshots
I hadn’t heard from Debbie since June, but Debbie has been in the FOREGROUND of my consciousness since early November, which is when I started working on a video/research project, which was basically her idea. She laid out the contours of this story to me about a year ago.
The topic is Ivermectin. Debbie and Steve Falconer (Spacebusters) are two of the only people I know of with a sensible take on Ivermectin.
Debbie called Ivermectin, “The Insecticide Alternative to Clotshots”.
To understand the history of Ivermectin, Debbie told me I had to look into the history of COLONIALISM in Africa.
WHAT??? What does that have to do with a cure for River Blindness?
It’s a MASSIVE rabbit hole.
(more coming soon!)
My video is based on a question I asked of Dr. Paul Marik during a Doctors for COVID Ethics call. I passed the clip to some of the experts in #TeamNoVirus, and one of them, whom I won’t name (a personal hero!) gave me harsh criticism. So I had to make sure I knew what I was saying.
I had to do a DEEP DIVE and find papers which were written in the 1920s-30s. (NOT EASY!) It took me a solid month of research.
But Holy cow, Debbie was RIGHT.
So I’ve been working on this project since early November, and Debbie is CONSTANTLY on my mind. It was HER story.
Suddenly, on Dec. 1, I woke up in a panic. I literally heard a voice in my head saying, with great urgency, something like,
HEY DUMMY!
**She was trying to tell you that she attempted suicide in February!**
WAKE UP! This is important!
So I started looking through her last emails to me, and it was all there. I was thinking there was an 80% chance that she tried to take her own life. But the voice in my head just now told me it was 100%.
Suddenly I had great urgency to get my Ivermectin project done. I thought if she saw the fruits of her work would somehow help.
Suddenly I had great urgency to get my video from 1997 about Shirley Allen in Roby Illinois edited (I just found the SVHS master and had it scanned to DVD. Needs some editing.
What does this have to do with Debbie? Shirley Allen was a 51 year old Nurse with mental health issues* who faced a 5 week standoff with the police over nothing. (* huh. Who does this sound like?)Suddenly I felt compelled to deliver a birthday present that I created/collected for Debbie for her 50th birthday last year and never presented to her. (long story… it’s coming!)
I was in such distress and remorse, I decided to “phone a friend”. I won’t say who, but it was one of my closest friends today. Someone who is a master of an alternative healing modality. I hated to dump on my friend with “my stuff”, but my friend is very caring and compassionate and offered to help.
I told my friend everything. I broke down and cried in grief.
The date was Sunday Dec 4.
Debbie didn’t die until Dec 9th!!!
WTF. I had had no contact from her in 6 months.
But I started receiving WAVES of Despair Dec 1 thinking about her.
And urgent messages from a voice in my head.
I have felt since 2018, that Debbie could communicate with me remotely.
Maybe like she was a radio transmitter, and I was a receiver. I mostly didn’t get thoughts or words (I did get those sometimes). I mostly received FEELINGS through my heart.
I also got the feeling that somehow, she was speaking through me.
Like I was speaking for her (because she was mostly voiceless/disabled since 2018).
Sometimes speak, and the words do not sound like my own.
They sound like Debbie’s words.
Then, on December 9th, I posted this to Facebook:
I was feeling so bad that Debbie was disabled. I wanted so badly for her to rejoin the scene some day. I had no idea that she was gone.
(I’ll be interested to learn her time of death to compare to my post, 8:57 AM).
Anyway, I have to wrap this up, but I know this is only the first of my stories about Debbie, my friend, my genius muse.
Debbie was a POWERFUL intellect, one of the greatest of our age.
She has a POWERFUL voice, and impacted many, many people.
Debbie’s wisdom, and her humor. and her friendship have all had a PROFOUND and positive impact on my life.
I will never forget you, Blessed friend.
May you Rest in Peace.
May your soul finally be free.
Your spirit will carry on in all of the souls you have impacted.
Good bye, Debbie. My beloved.
I am SO PRIVILEGED to have known you on a personal level.
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Thank you and God Bless.
Thank you for writing that memorial.
I had eventually found unite4truth.com, which taught me a lot and is fantastic, and was sad that it didn't continue. Now I understand more of what happened.
This is devastating news! She was an amazing human being. I followed her until she disappeared. So sad! Thank you for posting this information and thank you for carrying on her work!